That's all I needed
Oh my God

Everything just snapped in my head
Those few words that meant so much,
had so much feeling,
so much energy behind them.

By reading them, it felt like my eyes finally opened, the eyes of my soul.
I'm seeing everything in clear view.
I no longer wish for death.
I no longer pray for the day I take my last breath.

I'm not really sure what just happened.
It felt as if some force entered my body,
cleansing it, releasing all my pain, releasing my anger and fear.
My soul feels whole again.
I feel like I've grown into something so much better than what I used to be.
My eyes opened to a beautiful world where I can now see why people smile. I can speak without sadness behind my words. I can laugh without that feeling of depression in the background waiting to come out again.

I grip the failures of my past and I can look them in the eye.
I'm strong again.
I can't try to push them away, they made me who I am today.
I embrace them.
They can't intimidate me anymore.
They can't hold me under and drown me in sorrow.
It feels as if I've been reborn.
Replenished.

I have taken this first welcoming breath as I enter this new life of happiness and amazement.
I can sense everything around me, the energies circulating in the air, my veins pumping with blood throughout my entire body, my mind is racing attempting to comprehend these crazy threads i've just unraveled, my head is pounding with such a sensation it is impossible to explain, as my eyes dart every which way taking in the lovely world as it grows and survives these extremities we place upon it.
This nightmare has ended. I have finally stepped out of this purgatory I had trapped myself inside.
Now, I cry, but these tears are relieving. These tears make me smile. I cry because I won.
I have been beaten by misery but now I take the bat and break my way out.


I'm alive.
I am alive and I love it.